Ok, so i've had enough partying for the past 2 days. It wasn't like hard core or anything tho I DID drink quite a bit on Friday.

Latest update on the somewhat romance side... if it can be called that. So the latest interest in an 18 year old.. (someone commented, shit, getting yonger and younger) One of my friend lagi best. Ask me, would your mom be ok with it.. Seriously, wtf right? :p Well, it's not quite an intense interest realy. Like, I don't feel that invested in her as I do with other people, despite this is probably the freq i've ever spoken to anyone. We chat online every night and text each other every day. I've only went out with her once and that was pretty alright. And I called her last night when i was driving home from the club. Lotsa awkward moments in last night's conversation. not sure if it's cos she thinks i'm drunk or what. which i swear i really wasn't. Buzzed but not drunk.

So what's the draw in this person? For one, I don't feel all the intimidated when I'm with her. And it's not like she's mature for her age or anything like that. I'm usually drawn to that. She's very much like Y (the last ex). Spoilt and still immature to the rest of the world. At 18, she hasnt' seen much or experienced much either. Everything's still soemwhat pure. And because of that, everything's still untainted. There isn't a pre-conceived idea about things and she doesn't play games. She isn't afraid to be texting back too often or IMing back often as compared to some people. I'm not quite sure if she's interested as well but right now, i'm pretty content with having her to talk to. It's nice to be able to be myself.

Is she someone who's a potential? I serioulsy don't quite know. i'm not thinking that much. Previously, i'll be like weighing all sorts of factors but these days, I'm just thinking... hmm... why do we want to limit ourselves to so many things. Just get to know the person better, take things one step at a time and see how that goes. the age doesnt' bother me though we tease each other till no end about that our age. She'll bug me for being an old man and i'll bug her about.. i dunno.. i'll bug her about soemthing anyway.

So she's jsut moved away from her folks and living on her own, like most people here do. She's still adapting to the independance and also the lack of someone there to clean up after her and getting ehr stuff. You'll be surrpised how much things there are really to do when you're alone.. groceries and all that. So she's still getting all that. I'm just there to .. well, give ideas.

And in the past, I'll be like, fussing over how people should do this or that. But somehow, it's either with her only or how i am these days (i can't be sure, i haven't observed my own behaviour in this aspect yet), but I don't fret too much if she doesn't do this or that.. like skip a meal or something. I used to be piss with Y when she skipped a meal cos she wasn't taking care of herself. I guess for this 18 year old, i'm just letting her make some mistakes and not interfere too much. And it's not like she's expecting solutions from me either. And I'm making pretty sure that I don't end up being the problem solver for everything.

And seriously guys, this thing is going really REALLy slow. I think the fact that she's 18 keeps me in check in what i shouldn't be doing. I'v thought of busting out a move once in a while but then i stop myself when i remember, wait... 18 years old, same dept as well, cannot be too reckless. Those 2 factors are pretty much why i'm just holding back cos I don't want to be sorta in it just because of the physicality.

Cool thing is i'm not too hooked on to her either. I'm not obssessed about her and it might be because she's being equally attentive too so I don't feel freaked out if she doesn't msg or IM back. So it all works out. It's a pretty gentle climb right now. I just wanna go to the beach with her one day. I like doing that and it's so nice ot have a nice person to do it with.

On the somewhat stalker note. I managed to get a hold of her blog address from her networking site.. And then she took it down.. the link. Thankfully, it was still in my history from the last time I visited the site. I probably shouldn't visit it as often though. It usually screws up my thinking when I know too much about the person. More tahn I should. I oveer think things. But i've been sorta mentioned once unless there's someone else who's the same age as me anyway. But it's not like good news.. She mentions the age difference (doesn't say it's me) and she could never date someone that old. 24 maybe but not more. But she's been too busy to think alot about it. I don't expect her to immediately take to the idea. i'm not even used to that idea yet. Just chatting a lot to see how things go that's all.

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So Fatboy's comment about me and technology some time back is not too far off. So i spent like around 80 bucks just trying to protect my laptop. Get a nice sticker for it and it looks really good right? Then last friday, My lap top bag strap broke and it hit the floor rather hard. When I got home, i found out it dented my laptop bad and now, my optical drive is fucked unless I find a way to warp it back. The good thing is, the plastic case i had bot for the laptop to prevent scratches didn't crack and is fine.. Great.. just great.


I was in the process of getting a new computer too. A desk top cos my laptop can't handle the files i'm making it run these days. Not easy to part with 3K :(

Anwyay, i've ranted enough, i need to try to get my day started. I heard you guys met up recently. I hope everyone's well...