Juz read azzuri's blog about loving our home country. Somehow, what i'll be writing would somewhat be on a different level of... well, genre? :p

Well, I went ahead with meeting this person anyway. Well, it wasn't a bad night tho but I still didn't like how the whole situation was handled anyway so that's one more person to drop from the list of people i WON'T go all out to lend a hand when it's being streched out. Totally intorlerable. As expected... I dunno, don't wanna banter on abt her anyway. Somewhat a disappointment.

however, I did try to enjoy myself anyway. And I swear it's either my alcohol tolerance is gettin better or the mixes at Velvet aren't quite there. I had myself a shot of tequila, 2 vodka redbull and a bourbon coke (another on the list of NOT to be drunk on the last for me). I mean, I was slighty high but that's about it. I know i know... not very potent mixes but still, you guys should know, doesn't take all THAT much to me down. Usually 3 proper mixes and I'll be dancing away and probably be feeling sleepy not long after. But not the case last night. It was.. fine really...

Thankfully I had very sporting company to dance the night away til 4 am which I thot was amazing tho I think I need to pace myself better. Tired myself out in 15 mins towards the end, have a seat.. dance for 15... then sit. It was rather, well, anticlimatical. But I had fun nonetheless.. Not very often I can find sporting people to dance which sadly the guys that do are gays :S but hey, then again, I'm not complainin cos that leaves me the ladies :>

I got the most direct qs asked ever.. Probably the only direct one I've ever gotten. I was asked if I was straight, gay or confused :S Now, some people probably think it and wonder but no one's ever asked in such a direct form. I mena, some prob sneak in a 'your gf?' or 'are you attached?' using my answer as a form of clarification.. I think. Anyway, no surprises there anyway. But then, I worry cos what if girls thought I was gay too... But the good thing they're supposedly to lower their guards against gays anyway so maybe that's a good thing for me. But then, there'd be this 'I feel cheated, I thought you were gay' Hmm... or maybe.. it'd be 'Hey, I thought you were gay, but since you're not.. that's great.. let's go out!!'

like the last bit would just happen like tt :S



I did a lot of observing over at Velvet during my rest times. Tried to wonder and figure out the patterns of the 'ritual' going on there. Velvet's crowd is a crowd which I think is not suitable for me or least, people who aren't working and well, who aren't living on their own. I got 2 points against me already. That's like a 100% downer.

There were quite a number of women looking to be in their 30s or late 20s. I'll go as far as to say, maybe our age.. Maybe. Those are really really out of our league. More so when they're in groups. No way we can infiltrate this sorta pack.

Let us assume that everyone's there to either pick up or hope to be picked up. And even if they weren't, it's expected anyway. No.1 No moolah to spurlge on them. No.2 no pad to bring them back to. So that leaves us with.... what? nothing to try for. Somehow, maybe I'll stick to teeny boppy girls but ack, even that is sickening cos if you get them too young.. they're quite irritating. I super cannot stand the 'teh-ness' of them really and at least with the older women, I'm hoping ti won't be the case. But hey, I may never know.

I mean, i have no qualms about older peeps. Ok ok, I ain't talking about a long term r/s here or what lah.

Anyway, my expectation of anything happening obviously was squat. Come on, let's face it, we all hope don't we? Ok, some of us do and it's more common than you think. Anyhoo.. morality aside.

Observed the guys working the floor. It's.. well.. somewhat disgusting I feel. group after group of guys approaching the same pair of girls. That's just ONE incident. But granted, the velvet crowd's more interesting to pick up as compared to the others.. but well, it's a tough maintainance, I feel. Anyway, observing everything happening and knowing that one time, some time, I might and was one of these people, is well, ack.. disgusting. Somewhat degrading even. It's like I'm one of the many candidates who tried. I'm no different. All the same, predicable, and thus easily predictable I feel. And last thing I wanna do is fall into stereotype, of course..

But but.. I think I am predictable anyway. I guess we all are somehow, one way or another. Well, don't wanna be in the general public's eyes I guess. Don't wanna be, JUST another guy.

Anyhoo... as nice as velvet's a good place to check out babes.. quite outta our league. Or spefically out of the people who don't have a place of their own and spare cash to spend. Somehow, the group we should be targeting is the girls in their late teens early 20s. Now we know why when we younger, we grumbled about the older guys in their mid twenties going after the girls of our age then. Now we know better. They're easier to approach, with lesser expecations, hence easier to satisfy or impress and win over.

Anyway, all this being said, I'll hope to stay away from all this. Not a good idea to have a repeat of everything that has happened so far with me and Y. Last thing I wanna do is have a compressed 3 month version of what I had in 3 years. So yeah...

Speaking of which... It's anniversary of 39 months today. THinkin about it.. wow... close to 40 fucking months together.. How did it last so long? And if it wasn't meant to be, then why DID it last so long? Who knows really know?

Maybe I would..