They didn't have miami so i jus had b'fast anyway.

I'm thinkin we're both having the same thoughts right now. That if it's so difficult now, why can't we just be together. I never understood what it really meant when people nagged about others how they shouldn't feel sorry for themselves. I'm wondering if I'm doing any of that now. I dun really feel that I regret doing anything. I'm just sad that things are lost. I'm sad of all things I lost at the loss of the relationship. N no, it's not the sex u arses.

She may have driven me up the wall many a times but I'll still miss all she's given me, the moments and the influence she had left on me. All she's done for me and suddenly, all she's done against me doesn't seem all that important.

She was one person who showed me what a world with love would be like. When I was skeptical and wasn't serious about things, I learnt to treat love with more respect than I should. Well, maybe not so much love but relationships anyway.

She is one thing pure in my life. And she was someone I could be open with my feelings or weaknesses.

She gave so much more to me and sometimes i wished I could do the same for her.

i'm gonna miss our movie moments, our drinkin sessions, our makan sessions at chomp chomp and the walks back from there. I'm gonna miss having her in my arms when we fall asleep. I'm gonna miss waking up to her. All I got to remember that, are the stuffed toys.

I so much wanna tell her how much I miss her right now. So much wanna tell her to forget all we talked about yesterday and just pretend it never happened. I so much wanna go over to her house now and give her a big hug and not let go. But I know if I did that, it would be a weakness in the plan and that it'd spoil everything that we worked towards to yesterday. it was already good that she made the realisation herself and that things were mutual. No such things like, she broke off with me or i broke off with her. So we should just leave it as that. And I think we both know that.

Oh, i dunno where i'm going wif all this oso. Kinda expect myself to go acid bar more often somehow. Nice place and ambience. Even if it's just for a drink or two just to relax and stone. Dun really wish to stay at home or interact with anyone either. Not really looking for a relationship or anything. Just pass each day as it goes. Good that I got work on monday i guess with J so tt's pretty cool.

hope there's lotsa programmes on tv. Kinda no mood to play games. Like gotta think. Least I can just stone and watch tv. Press one button can liao.

Wonder if my mom knows if something is up. Esp when I'm playing all sorts of sappy songs and couping myself up in the room. I wanna say everything here but I think i'm better just reminscing on my own in my head.

Would like to apologise for people or person who have done what they could to this relationship and helped in some way. I'm sorry that things couldn't be worked out. Thank you for all that you have done. Despite it all.