Funny, can't seem to find a proper piece of music to type my post.

First thing on my mine before i lose the thot is, I sometimes wonder why I don't feel motivated enough when with her to do stuff. Like with some people, I think when they tell me they go to so and so place, i think tt's cool, almost makes me feel like going. But when 'she' tells me she wants to go so and so place, i super sianz somehow. Wonder if it's because so used to her and all? What is the reason? I can't put a finger on it somehow. Too used to having my way or is it because I'm with her so long tt I'm gettin lazy? I really dunno. I wish it were the case with 'her'. That I would somehow feel excited but maybe because her wants (not tt there are a lot mind u) always seem so.. out of the world sometimes, and I guess it also gets tiresome when I have to do the plannin while she just makes a suggestion. I guess that's the sian part of things. That it seems like etra work for me. Not tt the idea is bad, it's just that I see it as work. Maybe that's it. Whereas compared to friends' suggestions, I only have to tag a long since it is their suggestion in the first place. Well, it's the same for most of the stuff really. But I guess that's what I had liked her for, cos she seemed like someone I wanted to take care of... but not THAT much I guess.. I'm that idiotic i guess.

Btw, we made our peace by friday. Tried something new this time round. Had wanted to try that thing I did with jos. Sit by tennis courts drink snack and chit chat. Somehow, can't imagine chit chatting with her like I do with Jos. And that in my relationship, I feel is somewhat lacking. But guess I learnt to deal with it, and find outlets for that. So chatting with ehr isn't that important but I still enjoy the chats we have. Not so much on the daily life stuff but on life. Yeah, I like this kinda banter. Not like I'm all that well knowledgable in that aspect but still, it's something I enjoy. Anyway, we were too lazy to go down so decided to carry out that plan so decided to hold that in my room with lotsa caution cos the last thing I wanted ants in my room like my prev place. Had pringles and booze. Did a tequila red bull mix. I mean like real red bull. Pretty cool stuff. Tho I'm not sure if i killed a million brain cells or something. Was drinkin the gassy one. Think I'm gonna come with a 6 pack of red bull and tequila next time round. Nice man. Dun think I felt all that sleepy which was cool. And managed to down 5 shots which is a lot by my standards, before I felt pukey rather than sleepy. Anyone know any side effects of red bull? Learnt from producaiton that it really kept me up and going. Least till it wore off in an hour or two. The other concoction was her vodka cherry. Tasted excatly like jos' vodka raspberry. Cough mixture. getting somewhat fun. Then we tried a tequila orange which i guess is somewhat tequila sunrise. That was ok lah. I really liked the tequila redbull. Depending on mixtrue tho. Sometimes, the red bull was predominant which was pretty ok but to me, alcohol was always about not downin it properly so that was pretty ok for me. I mean, I even think graveyard is ok. Bitter is fine to me. Sour however is not. Like the long island tea we had at rouge. That was somewhat too sour for my liking.

Saturday me n 'her' spent time playing a bit of game. Think she's not much of a gamin person so shouldn't look for too much games for her. Had dinner with my mom and kinda fell asleep after that. Super sleepy. Sent her home in the morn. The usual. Meeting her again on wednesday for 7 swords. Any reviews on that?

Also, met up with Steve and Jope on thursday. Pretty cool. Nice catchin up with jope. Long time never chit chat liao. Steven was nice to hang out with as well. gotta check out his place one day :) And hope willie enjoyed himself for the past week :) Take care bro. get back safe :)

kk.. think that's about it.. Hope everyone's well and had a good weekend.