I dream of one day photographing a beautiful woman. Well, maybe not just a woman but anyone actually. Why I say that. Cos today's shoot had one helluva hot chick on it. Apart from seeing her tits half the time (she was pro abt everything) but after seeing her for long, I realise she's someone after seeing for long, can look prettier each time you see her.

Of course, given my current experience (which essentially is zilch) there's no way I can manage a professional model. Besides that, I'll probably gawk at her more than anything. But I think it's a dream to see a pretty person and try to bring out the best in him or her. The only prob is I don't even noe how to start if off. Such a shame. Sigh. I'll probably spend half my time worrying about lights and how it hits her than actually appreciating her beauty and bring it out. Prob spend all my energy worrying how to get things right then how to make things great which is what I dream it to be. To be good enough that I don't have to worry so much on getting things right but on geting things fantastic... beautiful.

But I can only dream for now.

It's been a long time since I crewed for a shoot. Darn tired but satisfying. Not just cause of the babes, but mingling, knowing people. It's fun. Tho I do believe my social skills need improving. It's not that I'm anti social but just needs improving I guess. Don't hold conversations well. Somehow, not as well with guys. I'm not the sports fan kinda person. Lest talk about 'bu's but even then tt's somewhat limited cos some of the crew 'cheong' that kind so I cna't really comment much about that cos I ain't exactly got any exp there so that's out. So guess only can comment about the babe or chick of the day in the crew or cast.

A's somewhat meeting up with a dude. I was actually quite cool with it. I generally am cept when things are not transparent to me. Well, her phone died while I called her from home and she didn't really make an effort to contact me after that whi is somewhat a bad idea if you asked me cos well, out with another guy and not keeping me posted? A big no no. So well, my thoughts were just off.. started thinkin how come never take the effort to contact me or even call me from public phone. So I'm thinkin, fine, out with the guy til don't want to call me back lah. Of course, I could be just over-reacting but I know some of the peeps are gonna scold me for me being so idiotic in all this but it's something I've always stood by and true, it may fuel my suspicions at times but this better than not knowing or knowing she wouldn't tell me. Ah well, maybe history will repeat itself but hey, "i'm stubborn in the things I believe"

Anyway, I shouldn't talk too much. I should concentrate on tasks at hand. LIke searching for schools. Ok... catch u guys soon.. :) tomorrow another day of shoot... sigh...