there are 2 sides of me. The more stablily practical one, or the more emotional crackpot. I'm feeling the latter right now. And when I feel that way, an artist persona seems to take over. Basically, I just feel artistic. I somehow see the world in a different light. Of course, I feel more moody but somehow, more intuned and more heart than mind. Which jos once questioned what had happened to tt side of me. GUess we all know it's still there. For better or worse. I somewhat hate it cos it makes me kinda quirky. But guess the diff now is I'm somewhat more aware of it. Not tt I can do anything but least I'm observing myself. Hmm.. seems somewhat weird when one says, I'm observing himself. Makes it somewhat schizophrenic (i spell this but can't remember how sixty is spelt.. sheesh, go figure.)

I somehow expect my plans with A to not last tt long today seeing she didn't really prompt me for much or ask what we're doing today. I'm thinkin of hitting the bar tonight. Alone or with company. I'm that bored. I'm that bugged. I don't know really. I hope the old me returns soon. Great, now I'm really begining to sound schizo. Least there's only 2 personas to alternate between so it ain't tt bad. But dun we all. Haf one or more faces. Guess it's more apparent here cos I don't have a fixed one and depends on the time of the day, month or week or soemhting and I show it all.. ALL here.

Well, apologies if the wordings here seems, depressing or morbid. Just a phase I hope. :) Thanks for reading my ramblings if u've gotten so far. Take care all. Have a lovely weekend.