The fam finally left after coming to visit me for graduation.

They were driving me nuts for most parts and was really quite a big inconvenience for me cos I wanted to hit the ground running straight after graduation. BUt I ended up needing to play driver and tour guide and really had no time to do any work proper. Yes, some have said it's a good time to just take a break but the reality is, I don't have the luxury to. I have to try to make it all the way to june and beyond that financially. I already feel bad enough asking my folks for money as it is. I really don' want to keep having to do that.

I've also realised that saying good bye sucks. Yeah, I know it sounds really obvious but after saying bye to mom last night, I felt it even more. More so when she's bloody tearing.. -_____- makes me feel bad for leaving her. sheesh...

but with that realisation, i realise I hate goodbyes and wonder if that's the reason I never really dared to start anything proper... cos all I see are the goodbyes that are to follow and how things won't work.

I had wanted to rant more but I get really lazy to type too much these days and usually would just rather chat online. I need the interaction.

anyway, in case anyone's wondering. I'm gonna try to stay on here cos it IS the entertainment industry of the world and I want to try to make it in the gaming industry doing their advertising. It's really specific I understand. Andf possibly movie posters as well cos not only do they pay really well but i'm creating images that aren't conventional. And still doing the work I love doing which is mainly fantastical images. But we'll see how it goes. I know it's not going to be an easy road and I'm going to try to work really hard to try to make it.,.... cos there's no option of failure at all.....