ok.. i think i need to update people and things a lil bit..

Current r/s or love status? Single... but i'm happy single too.. :) I kinda like it at moment but of course, i'm always kinda fickle so that might change after this post but who knows..

So the problem with the last chick? For one.. she was 18 but some of your guys already kinda knew that was trouble already and I shoulda known better.. but well, you know how you sorta hope and think that it'd be different than how normal people might be.. ah wells.. i shoulda known as usual and not gone with my 'gut' instinct and used my head and told my head she'd be the same as all the other 18 year olds..

Cons? Hmm... well, somehow it was during my trip to NY where I kinda realised how much of a pain in the ass she can be... she didn't come with me but we kept in contact online. And each time we chatted, she'd constantly say she wished i was there and all that. Sweet as that might sound.. i seriosly don't need to hear irt every single time and more than once too... Oh.. yeah, and she's whiney too. And maybe i'm just not quite there yet in terms of the whole.. blocking out whining bit.. oh.. and sometimes she's cool with me not wanting to meet her but sometimes she passively pressures me to spend time with her and all that and I don't quite like that as much but yet at the same time she's soemtimes cool with me being busy with my work and all that so.. it's kinda quite conflicting there... so yeah, and i realie my fuse has been quite short with her.. and all this is after I came back from NY... Andf i'm kinda glad that i sorta got to know someone else BUT.. it wasn't the catalyst for the break up. I know this cos we kinda broke up before i got to know this person. but somehow.. the idea of being able ot know more people seemed a lot more enticing and it felt like iwasn't with the prime of the crop and I could get someone better and I didn't quite need to be with ehr. And the fact that i didn't really wanna try that much to be with her kinda says a bit about how i felt towards her.. She's still hopeful somehow tho... Nice as that is.. i wish she wasn't.. but yeah well...

recently, i met an international chick... she's cute, interesting.. 21... from italy and thankfully has normal english. by normal, i mean, we understand each other fine cept for the occasional accent moments where we have to repeat just cos we both speak too fast. Currently, i like hanging out with her.. I'm not sure if it's the crush stage but i like hanging out with her anyway. And I'm not sure I want it to go anywher more than what we got right now.. We've been hanging out a lot for the past one week plus.. and it's been nice. And I was willing to push back my work a lil just to hang out with her.. She's interesting and fun.. And in some i guess i feel like i'm gaining a lot from her experiencially cos I get to hear and learn about another culture.. whereas for the 18 year old.. all i learn from her is freakin what happened in high school... that's like.. nothing... zip zero... so yeah, italian girl's kinda nice and fun to talk to.. and couple that with the accent.. that's hot.. she does however have a bf back home tho but i don't think that's really much of the porblem..

but here's the thing.. i don't quite wannnit to go any further cos everything's perfect right now.. there isn't anything more i want.. i don't quite feel like a need to get into her pants... and we hang out with each other often enough anyway... so everything's sorta all good now... i'm being more careful here cos there's things I don't quite wanna spoil. I guess for the other one, i was more of a whatevrr.. and i think i was in a more of a whatever sorta mood too... I think my mindset for close friends also cxame along with the trip to NY where i appreciated having close friends around to trust and all that.

So that's the most recent update then.. i am happily single and meewting friends and hanging out.. no pressure no anything.. just clean fun.. with drinking of course.. it's her 21st next week and me a friend or two are gonna be celebrating and drinking.. so that's going to be cool.. :)