I have a big time problem on my hands.. If you guys remember i have a whole series of obnoxious tees.. some of which puts me across as a casanova... something with women and time? Well, right now... I really AM having that situation.. FUCK... And trust me.. i'm not being all that cocky about things... It's a problem.. I'm not getting enough sleep.. Sheesh.. Already twice this week, cos of the 2.. women that is, i've stayed up longer than i should.. not for anything mind you, it's just getting to know em.

And as you guys know, i've always turned to the internet for companionship.. Maybe you guys do too.. maybe i'm the only weird one... but anyhoo... i don't know why, it's just a convenient avenue for me.. SURE... in the past there's been lotsa misses... n this continues on till this day.. I met a 21 year old equivalant of A.. OMG... can die!! needless to say, we ain't talking no more cos she managed to piss me off one evening when i was in a foul mood and was not in the mood to sweeten my words... She was asking for it anyway. Told her i have problems... 2 sentences later, she tells me hers... WTF.. how self sentered can you get? I wasn't asking for coaxing or consolation but neither was i looking to be a problem solver at the same time.. Geez.. A$ian nonetheless... n not ang mo-ised!

BUT.. despite me having the fear of dating A$ians cos of my reminder of A.. i started to change my preference, realising that it was inevitable cos there's a high percentage.. AND.. the ang-mo-ised ones.. really aren't that bad...

SOOoo.. anyway, my somewhat sorta dilema.. There's this online classifieds which is higly popular here.. So there's where i go around trying to get to know people.. some have been pretty whacked.. but that's where i get my occasional kicks..

SOooo.. anhway, i got to know this 32 year old, latin/caucasian mix.. into goth but isn't dark or moody.. knows what she wants to do with life and is passionate... but obviously has a dark side too which i find appealing.. i feel there's a lot i can grow when i'm with her... is a singer n guitarist.. owns 2-3 clubs thon i don't quite understand what she means by owns... cos it's not like she's living in a big house either.. soo.. maybe she owns a part? I dunno.. She's a full time nanny and also lives 10 mins away from my school.. Got the proxmity thing going there for her...

THEN>. there's this vietnamese 26 year old this year... hmong to be exact.. so she's kinda scary in the sense that.. she's VERY similar to me... VERY.. to the extent of too similar... likes sorta the same things.. talks a lot... which is nice... writes poetry.. is VERY positive about life.. problem is.. she's TOO positive and idealistic about life.. thinking she can change the world... too noble for my liking... likes dancing... is doing a masters in public health.. and is very driven and motivated. Her b'day's 2 weeks away from mine n is the same age as me.

If you ask me to compared the two.. the older one is obviously has seen more and knows more and is someone i can grow a lot with just from her experiences and what she knows in general. The 26 year old isn't all that knowledgeable but she's pretty fun to be with... cute and all that..

I've gone on a date with goth32... fuckng 48 bucks dinner date.. I've only talked on the phone with the viet but i spoke to her on the phone for 3 fucking hours.. bloody hell.. i ended up with only 4-5 hours of sleep before my 14 hour day..

So yeah, i now have the dilema of not knowing which direction to go. i COULD just date both and see how that goes but MAN... this is draining for me man.. it really feels like there's so many and so little time... and i'm just having TWO... physcially, they're not BAD looking that's for sure... but they ain't what i imagine to be my ideal appearance but it's something i can live with just cos of their character really... There's others i've been eyeing i'd so die to date but.. don't know them well..

And i keep wondering if i'm really fearing commitment cos i don't quite know who to settle for and am afraid of making a wrong mistake in choosing dammit.. BUT.. things might be pretty interesting between the 2 cos i'm pretty sure there's been openings for me to..y'know.. do something to advance the situation.. with all the flrity here and there.. esp with the viet.. so.. we'll see how that goes..

anyway, that's it so far.. trying to keep the pace for this term... not easy cos a lot of self disciplined involved so i gotta keep focused...

HOw's everyone doing?