funny, fastest time frame between good and bad ... like i just found out suddenly that ERF is sorta seeing somoene.. just randomly.. JUST LIKE THAT!! it was like 100% drop to -50%, it's just weird.. n totally threw me off and i'm damn sianz about things now..

SOOooo.. for some of you guys.. you probably would read the good long super duper dreamy fantasy post n then this super duper moody negative one.. sigh.. i just feel fucked up right now.. i do think i give up.. i mean, it's refreshing cos, well. it sorta reminds me of what i want in a person but yet depressing at the same time cos even if this person comes along, it doesn't mean squat... SQUAT!!

she could've been perfect in my eyes... she might've already been.. and i know so much of this is so silly n me being silly on my part and i know better... i guess i just need a day or two or a night's sleep to get over it...