Our home country.

I've been encountering a lot of people n gettin involved in discussions regarding the nurturing of creativity in this country. I've been also hearing complains how sucky or bad things are here. Some of these are very true. I guess the good and bad of things is that, because we are of such a mixed up culture, we lack an identity. And if creativity isn't our strong then developing our own UNIQUE identity is really difficult. So far, our identity is simply to mocked about. And what people remember most about us is weirdly enough, through noterity.Identity nonetheless but not something you want to be known for.

But these weeks when I've been hanging out with people wiht strong opinionhs. People with passion. (sorry, i was typing this pos rather late in the night, hence the horrid typos)

Lemme restart.

In the recent period, I'm not sure if I've been a lil sensitive to our country and people's comments on it or the people around me just seem to be coincidentally commenting. Then again, I HAVE been meeting up different sorts of people recently. Like the peeps I get to know online who are studying there. Some native of our country. I also know people who have always been here and don't like the system here. Some, who've travelled abit and also not like the system here. So seriously, what is it about this place then?

I don't want to be too quick to condemn our country. What with our nation's birthday coming up.... (who am i kidding, I dont' give a fuck) But i seiroulsy, dun wanna be quick to kill it. Cos I do think our country IS a fine place to be in. For it's stability and security. But unfortunately, that is the EXACT thing about it. It's too controlled. You know you watch shows about the governing body looking out for you, for YOUR good and all. I mean, some of those shows are kinda extreme but I think that's the problem with our system. It works too well sometimes. It's good to see some of the top schools changing to be more flexible. We may be successful economically but on the people level, maybe we need the change of mindsets. But the problem, with less control comes a possible rise in non-conformance, which on soem levels is good. But i THINK that for a country so small, the ripple effect would be quite disastrous. Tho i wonder, with the different towns we live in, and probably a different culture in all of them, woudl the effect really be that great?

i AM aware of one thing tho. I can't stay in one place for too long. Or maybe a person in general cant or shouldn't. You get lazy and too used to your surroundings and have a lesser chance of improving yourself. You basically stunt your growth. I don't want that to happen to me. Somewhat sorta linked to me staying at home too much. It's very refreshing to go out and see things happening... to excit the mind and get it to think beyond the screen. I hate these couple of weeks cos I've been stuck at home due to inconvenience or just needing to do stuff. I feel.. non productive. I thrive on the days when I make a lot of phone calls to settle things. This 2 weeks have been such.

So yeah, I think I need to excite my brain to think more and my physical to DO more. Rather than thinking. Cos thinkin is really just half the act. I next need to will myself to make it happen. Weirdly enough, probably make things more instinctual and plan it such that I don't hafta to think but just execute after prior planing.. But then, that's prob what some would sya as the typical way we do it in our country. To plan and all that. I think it's all down to doing it just right. Planing as much as you can but yet leave room for flexibility.

Anyway, the people who are there are giving me a lot of hope that it would greatly make me excel, largely due to the acceptance of things different which over here, you can't do. Basically nothing too outrageous here. But over there, it's welcomed. And you're free to do it. I think I'll love that a lot. We'll see when we get there. :)