I'm darn bloody fucking pissed.

A friend once said or rather realised that I am a vengeful person.

I was thinking back about a line I used to believe in very strongly but has eventually simmered down in it's effect. It's the whole how you can't control what things that happen but when you can do is control how you react to them.

I used that to come to terms with things I couldn't understand were happening to and around me.

And it's funny how a similar quote when viewed with different eyes can have a totally different meaning altogether.

I'm like thinkin, it could also me, that if someone does unto a bad thing to you, you could react madly at it, be calm about it and shrug it off or exact bloody venegence back unto this person. It stills sorta falls under the same quote.

And when i think back about how I would get back at a person, esp at issues closer to heart, I do realise that truly, I am a vengeful person. And morality never ever comes into play. Cos like a fanatic, wrong it may be to what I'm doing, but yet, justified in my eyes.

Ironically, I was having this whole debate with a friend about the right and wrong of things. Wrong as things may be, does it mean it's unjust. And that a perosn who takes justice into his own hands, does it mean, it would be wrong of them to kill a murderer just cause he ain't the legal executioner?

Seriously, there are many things I wish I could do but it's well, as usual, the fear of being caught and punishment and how it isn't worth it for such a person. But that's another thing altogether.


I had a bad start to a conversation and was seriously one of the shortest turn to a lousiest conversation ever. I was askin X how X-men was and she totally killed the movie for me by tellin me a key thing as a reply... I'm like WTF!! I'm not sure if it's a prank or something but certainly left a very bad taste in my mouth and totally disgusted me. You DO NOT play with my expectations in a movie. Giving me generic feelings about the movie.. like story wasn't that nice, music sucked.. ok, subjective stuff, that's fine. You don't fucking tell me a fact in a movie like who did what or died or what not.. It's just ...MEAN!!

And if it's meant as a practical joke then it's one fucking lousy joke. Cos if it's even meant to mislead me then all i'm seein is that you're capable of leading a lie for so long just for your sole satisfaction. And even that is fucking unforgiveable. You do not string along your friends and lead them on a wild goose chase either just for your own enjoyment.

Disgusting.