This was the feeling I had last night:

"S I leave the house, I wonder to myself y I am doing so. Leaving the house that is. Shouldn' I be in the arms of the person whom has loved me for the past 2 and half years? Rather than a sorry attempt at fiding some thrill outside right now? I wonder wad had happened to those days when we would spend weekends together? Where were they? Y had I degenerated to sucha state? N yet despite it all, here I am, still waiting for my bus to bring me to another place of escapism. Am I being so self destructive right now? Maybe. Cos I'm aware yet continuin o. I hope I stop these soon."

In the club, I was typing this:
"I feel like an entirely person (i guess i meant different) here. With the music, the beats. A better person, a person who's experiencing life's pleasures. The rhutmn, the flow, the instincts. Primal. Without thot. I didn't wanna think."

Curiously enough, I had went to momo expecting to be alone for most part of the nights. But wadya know. I bumped into the ladies from SIM, ala, Jan, Queenie, joyce, mervyn, cynthia, chee wei and chai hui. Wow, I still can remember their names. So I detoured from my original plan and went to some ktv pub at central mall and hung out with them. Quite fun. Couple of not bad lookers. PLayed games, drank then they went back cos most of em got work the following day.

I went ahead with my original plan and tho it didn't go as planned, but heyz, I managed to enjoy myself tremendously dancing away which had been sucha sucha long time. Good thing was I had quite a nice spot to dance without it being too cramped and all. Also, over at the live section, was pretty cool. They even played whitesnake which strangely, no one knew the song, What is Love... Go figure.

I was supposed to go home but detoured over to jos' and went for supper. And proudly, I managed to start the night at 10 and ended at 5. A lil sleepy but nothing new. But least I stayed on at the club till 2plus and that was great. Satisfyingly, I spent only 12 bucks on approx 3 mugs of beer (due to janice's pouring but I'm not complainin), 15 bucks on a stupid magarita which didn't tast as nice as the frozen I had at acid bar and half a jug of diluted gin tonic which sucked and made water parade days seemed like nothing.

The scene at momo was pretty alright. Quite a nice mix of guys and gals. Guys might be a tad more but a ig improvement compared to dbl o, always my benchmark. Gals there weren't all that bad with quite a number of lookers tho the group that hung there sometimes looked dodgy. Some of the people looked like they wouldn't think twice of giving you a sock if you so much as looked at their girl. There were people in their 20s to 30s, indians, malays, chinese and probably eurasians. Only saw one group or rather one caucasian. But overall, it was quite an alright experience cos as usual, i didn't think so much of pickin anybody up from there. Headache has always been, wtf and where am I gonna go with em. anyway, the music was nice enough for me, with occasional flirts with some people around but nothing too dangerous and that was it. Music really saved the day. GUess really really wanted to unwind (not tt I had a tough week). Guess I found it liberating not to think so much of anything. And I mean anything, BUT the scene at that point. It was nice. :)