Again, lost my post. Sheesh... Computer cocked up and i force quit and forgot that I was in the middle of an entry.

It feels strange to be home on a weekend. Tried to make a couple of plans but somehow, never came through. It's weird cos the whole feeling feels like a weekday, you know, with my parents home but yet, at the back of my head, I knew it wasn't the same. Feels, wrong.

This week seemed like much has happened. Strange. It's only been a week since we broke off but yet, it feels like it's been longer. Feels anyway. Only a week. So foreign.

I so much want to call her. Wanna have things the way it used to be like before. But I know that's not possible. I think back about the time when I told her about the scenario where i would leave when I grad and tt it would be best not to be together. But she made me believe so that she would stay and in tt, gave me no reason to not leave. Lesser reason to anyway. Tho I half believe that her promise was due to her being myopic. She failed to see the larger picture, the future. Least til when it has progressed to this stage where the next step right now is for me to leave and suddenly it becomes a real problem. I guess I could be picky and be angry wif her for breakin her word but seriously, wad is the point in that. Makes her feel worse than she already is anyway. No point.

I wonder if she ever questions and wonders if i'm angry, disappointed or detest her for her going back on her word. But I guess at the end of the day, it's not so much who's fault or wad but really the reality of things.

I've told my mom abt things. Asked me if she cried. Least she didn't ask if i did. Then she somewhat retold this tale which kinda reminded me the thing about A that I had fell in love with and also somehow, shot myself in the foot with too. So weird. I remember the time my mom was tellin abt A when she cried cos of an incident which concerned her painting the wall. I fell in love with that fragility. All I wanted to do was to hold her in my arms and comfort her. And that is what I loved her for.

My mom was so cute. Told her about A and she was commenting both 2 times break up. Like twice for her and twice for me. Then commented that I was getting good at handling breakups and i'm like tellin it's not something I wanna wish to be good at.

Today was family day or some sort. Drove bro to MS then picked mom up at raffles city. Thus is the life of a person who ain't got anything better to do.

Wonder how's everyone doing?

Wherever You Will Go

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

CHORUS
If I could, then I would
I'd go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

CHORUS

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love
I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

CHORUS

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go