THE BASTARD IN ME
Allow me to bitch once again. This time round, I believe I'm the bastard. Simply for not resolving the issue when I had the chance and also cos I just didn't feel like it.

For the past 2 days, she's been gettin on my back on how there's double standards with regards to sending my friends and all. And also on how I'm not bothering about her and not listening to her and remember the stuff she says. Now, the sala thing in all this is tt she backed me into a corner which the only way I know how to get out of is to retaliate.

So now, I'm being the bastard and making things difficult than it should be. She wrote a letter of 'peace' stating her reasons for her outburst trying to reason that she's feelin edgy maybe cos of the impending 'doom' (me going overseas). But now, somehow, I just don't want to know the reasons cos 2 days in a row is really pushing my limit. I'm being a total arse by being unrelanting. My reason being I'm tired of always opening the door in and what not. Tired of always needing to stand there to get a beating and later smiling and sayin it's ok after she apologises. For fuck. (focus dudes, don't even think it wise guys, that's not it). And with her wanting me to go geylang to look for some stupid costume for racial harmony, all the more I'm resisting not so much cos I mind but simply cos at the back of MY mind, I'm thinkin that after the shopping's done, she's gonna find some issue again.

Quite right, she assured me that she's gonna resolve her issues after I pointed it out in a mail shot back to her in response to her 'peace' mail. But I was a bastard and mentioned tt she's nvr managed to keep it right from the smallest to the biggest issues, what's the diff with this of her resolving her issues then. Then she bolts by sayin that she shoulnd't have voiced out her issues at all. So here we are now. Right now, it's the battle of prides. Who will make the first move? Cos I feel that I've been a tad difficult in all this and feel somewhat bad, but I'm not gonna do squat about it either.