PArt (I)
I wonder to myself sometimes or rather right now, when do things come to a point when enuff is enough. COs right now, I'm wondering should I hang on and give her a chance to redeem herself.

I'm starting to question the validity of the relationship and why i'm holdin on so tightly. It's true I will miss her presencen but wad is the reason behind it. Slowly, I start wondering whether am I missin cos there will be one less close person in my life. I'll miss her presence and the things we did. Without comin off like a whore, I keep wondering how much of my values I haf to compromise just to keep the relationship working. IN all fairness, she ain't entirely to be blamed and that I CAN be more understanding that it is her character. But like I said, sometimes I wonder to wad end. I thot the it was a basic requirement wad I somewhat expected of her. But in all fairness, she oso expects some things out of me which is deemed a 'basic requirement' too. Tho I did't reali see it that way. BUt the same could be said for her...

BUt I keep wondering how long all this changes and compromises are gonna last. And when do u start loosing what u treasure just for the other. I'm sure she has tt as well but the good thing is she has managed to find a companion for her travelling needs. Tho they r somewhat a bit scary but nvm, kinda giving up bothering. I dun haf a lot to ask or require... Just those basic stuff. I dun expect her attention or shower me wif stuff and wad nots. Just be there.... And even tt, I hafta change my expectations.