Someone was mentionin abt 'the one' and no, i ain't tokin abt anythin wif the matrix. And in some sense, I'm surprised that people still believe in it, even despite havin been in and out of a handful of relationships.

I used to adopt this mentality and mayb unfortunate for her. I used to think that should go out wif as many people i could and haply, the right one would come along. So A was somewhat the first of the lot, of whihc, i really didn't expect it to last so long.

Now when we're talkin abt 'the one' or the right one, i guess it's more of a feeling thing more than anything right? But really quite hard to base anything on just the feeling bit, compatability is oso a factor ain't it? Cos the feeling can only last for so long and at the end of the day, a decade down the road, i find it hard for tt feeling to sustain if compatability is not there.

There is no perfect match, and if there is, i'm happy for them. Cos more than often, there will be differences but the thing is makin it work with these differences and that the differences cannot be too extreme, far apart or far fetched to work with.

Also, there is also a set of things we imagine the right one to have. Not neccesarily we will get it, but it's a start, a guideline.

But if feeling is involved, then doesn't it debunk everything i just said?

When with A, there wasn't really a specific thing I liked about her when i met her, it was really more of a feeling thing. Mayb that feeling could be called love or attraction or just initial sparks, i dunno. But I can safely the feeling hasn't really died. True times I may feel jaded and all but when back with her, the feeling's still there.

And right now I'm thinkin, is this feelin jsut a very general thing to classify. Mayb this feelin is just happiness. BUt i think it's more than that... or do i? Sigh, I don't really know and mayb i'm tryin too hard to try to know since logically, u can't really know a feeling, it's just something.. tt well, feels... right or wrong or.. whatever.

Funny how I had wanted to write an entry on the hope of 'the one' to have degenerated to one of confusion and not really very hopeful.

When I analyze the people I've liked or went out with, I realise I fall more for the more independant and somewhat stronger bunch as compared to the ones tt are dependant ones. Maybe because they're more outstanding and their presence more overwhelming and I wonder is it because of that, it makes them more attractive. Of course, the quieter ones have their points as well. And strangely enuff, A doesn't fall into the one wif higher stats. But she has her redeemin qualities which i never expected to be present in one. And in her own way, she's shown me that there really is some niceness and selflessness in people and maybe because of my cynicism and practicality at times which makes her more jaded and drained. It's funny that just when I thot I was warmin up to her and doin more things which I wouldn't normally do that such a thing comes along. Irony.

Not sure where i'm going with this post anymore. Just ranting. Might write a poem, mayb not. see how i feel. Now just listening to sappy chinese songs and s usual, Jay's on the playlist again. Among others.

Thanks to a friend for the listening ear. I'll be yours the next time round when u need it.

Take care all, see you around.