YOU LOOTS BETTER TAKE THE TIME TO READ THIS COS I ACTUALLY PUSHED BACK MY SCHOOL TIMING A LIL TO WRITE THIS!!!

It always saddens me when I see someone jaded. Not to say I ain't at times and do sometimes appear cynical but as i told A that I do hold on to the hope tt things will be better in the future tho the shit may be constantly hitting the fan. That's how I get along each day tho some days worse than others.

I was readin a friend's blog abt his/her pessimism towards relationships and love in general and how sometimes, it's easier not to love cos at the end of the day it hurts u back, somehow, one way or another. And true, most of us have felt this way and times, it is truly easier to turn your back on love.

I mean, come on, singlehood is fantastic, there's no need to constantly tell someone where u r, no need to worry what u say or do may affect the other, no need to worry and wonder about where the other person is and what she/he is up to. no one to hurt u significantly cos the lesser u give, the lesser the hurt. What's great is that you don't have to conisder anything and just do what u wanna do. It's great.

I used to think that way and still do at times. But alas, the company of women is too much of a draw. Least from my point of view anyway. Troublesome as they are at times, there are stil some things we love about them. I always stand by this belief. Always learn to live with yourself and live alone. If you can manage that, then havin someone in your life would be a step up from the life you have now. That way, you won't be overly dependant on the other person.

I used to think that I needn't need (hah?) to look for someone to love and that love would find its way to me. Nice as it seems, it's not very realistic (but love sometims ain't very real is it? :p ). I realised tt if i closed my eyes to love, without acknowledging tt it was there, I would never find it.

True life would be so much simpler without the variables that love presents but life would be somewhat less colourful as well without someone to share your life with. Someone told me tt true, your friends may be here now, but someday, everyone's gotta move on and they're all gonna have their own lives their own families so what then?

I may not neccesarily be all for marriage and at times even neglect the aspect of relationships but at no one time, do I wish that it was never there because I noe that it's wad makes me sane on days tt don't make sense. I know that there's this one person who'll always be there for me to listen me out.

But that being said, neither should one be too dependant on another either to the extent that it burdens the significant other. I believe that battles should first be fought on your own before seekin the help of others. This way, things won't be taken for granted.

So to my friend and possibly another which i realised might fall into this same catogory, relationships and love has its ups and downs. We've all been spurned and burned in the face of love it doesn't mean we close our eyes to it. Go on each day with the hope that somethign great will come your way and if it hasn't it just not time yet and get along with your life proper. But never close your eyes to it cos if you did, you'll never ever see it even if it's right in front of you and might possibly be something u've wnted and waited all your life.