THE DUH THING
It's funny how sometimes, some things we remind others, we don't quite remember to practice ourselves often enough.

After a talk with someone which made me realise all too well what was wrong, or rather, what wasn't wrong with A, I suddenly realise or remember what I've always told her to reassure her which I seemed to have lost track or lost focus of. "There will always be someone better out there for us," I always told her "but what matters is that I'm staying with you". That line didn't do very well with her but it's something tt reminded me not to start puttin out a list of who i want my future to be waht and whether A qualifies as one, which I was starting to do due to some events here and there.

I guess the dark side of her just overshadowed everything and in the end, all I wanted was just a way out and away from her. Now, after all's somehow forgiven and a lil more forgotten, things don't seem all that bad. Good even to the extent that talking about the future doesn't worry me much at all. Of course, after a reminder by a significant person that the important thing is that she stands by me through everything and so far, she's seem to be doing a darn good job at it. And that IS rather a strong point. True, I do think it's her sentimentality and her character that she's doing that but hey, she's still here after all that's happened, and I guess that has gotta count for something. GUess the fights will either make or break us and the few times, it really did. But resiliance or maybe pure laziness to find someone new made us bounce back up to try again.

True, I may still lament and bitch about her and all. I may complain about women and bitches alike but I guess she's still one that I love and adore so dearly.

DISCIPLINE
I read in an article on Life! about this local photographer, David Tan was putting up a decade of his exhibition up at the MICA building (it's the one near clarke quay right?, not sure of that). He said, "It's not easy being beautiful. Some have a slight advantage with good cheekbones and low BMI but you still need discipline to be beautiful" and reiterated by saying "If guys want to do body shots, they have to work harder for their six-pakcs. Otherwise it's a waste of my film and their time".

The key thing here? Discipline.

Unless you're born with a silver spoon in your mouth, everythin we want or is derived is all from discipline. Even that silver spoon in your mouth is there cause of someone else's discipline. There's no running away from it. A model has to control her diet to get the body shape she wants. A bum has to consistently eat a fair amount of food to get to their bloatedness. True one may be easier to achieve than the other but the key thing here is still discipline to stick to a routine. Some may have it easier sticking to a particular discipline while others may have it tough. Some dun find it a prob not eating junk food or find it a chore eating it constantly. Ladies and gentlement. Discipline. That's also what sets us apart from the succeful of us lots, and the not so successful. You could call it resilience if you want. Sticking to what you desire and that discipline as well as well as determination. All the same really. Ok, maybe not able to be used in the same usage in a structure and a check in a theasaurus would not be a match but you guys know what I mean.

of course, there's also an exception. Cos how disciplined one is, it's sometimes nice to break out of a routine once in a while and examine one's self. Hence, the new mantra, moderated discipline. Moderation was something taught to me or rather, exposed to me by a dilbert person. It's the key to living right I believe, assumin shit don't happen anyway. And like all thigns in life, even discipline has to be moderated and even moderation itself has to be moderated. Stirkin the balance is of course the key. Excessiveness... bad. Even excessive sex is bad. Now get yer head outta the mud. I mean like 12 hours sex, excessive that kinda thing. U tell me that's good and i'll sock you in the head and make sure it still stands.

But anyway, that's my 2 cents worth of it anyway. Now I just hope I can stick to my routine and get some things out... sheesh... hope y'all are doing well. I'm recovering well now. Just tt evertying smells of mucus so tt prettty much sucks but apart from tht, all's fine really. :)