sigh.. hate it when I type a post and it disappears. Anyway, update for all. it's final. Me n A went our seperate ways as of last night 8ish. Maybe it was for the best tho some part of me would hate that it would be. Who knows, maybe some given some time, we will look past what has happened and be able to get together again. But strangely enough, when i left her, I didn't love her any less and I don't think she did either. I guess it's something I just couldn't overlook. whether she understands it now or later, what's done is done. She is regretful of her failure in not seeing it earlier but really, what's done is done and there really isn't anything she can do. I wish her the best in her future and hope that she finds herself and that all I've done is not in vain.

Find it funny that despite knowing that this thing was going down, I still went on having a good time with her at K-box singing my heart away tho it didn't realli do my throat or my nausea any good.

I realised that gal pals are not as reliable as the bros. I contacted all that I could think of who might be able to offer a shoulder but sadly, none could make it. I have without a doubt tt if it were the guys, they would drop what they had or at least attempt to make an effort to meet me. Maybe jope has been right all this time in how he thought. Anyway, finally decided to call in the calvary and jos was there for me as usual (prob cos I always call on him but haf no doubt the rest would've done the same) for a listening ear (somehow weird for guys to be the shoulders to cry on so don't take offence). But in all fairness, not sayin everybody was not encouraging and some really had dire commitments to attend to and was forgiveable. But does put in perspective and who I devote my attention to in the future.

Anyway, nevertheless thanks to all who have given me their support in the little things they did. I really appreciate it. Take care all and I'll see you guys really soon.