I had a lot of fun blading yesterday tho I believe my body ache is sorta testament of that. Thanks guys for the outing :)



I'm begining to notice these days, I get very angsty and irritated VERY VERY easily and I don't know why. Even the normal things I've always endured are starting to irk me a lot. And now I'm at a loss cos I don't know what is the source of it. I really don't know. And that gets even more frustrating cos I can't tackle a problem I don't know of.

As I explainined to X jus, maybe it's cos lately, I reach out to people but people are just not doing the same to reach back. And it's not jus online people I meet.. even people whom I have desires to catch up on are not helping much in that aspect. It really makes me wonder why do I even bother. It's disheartening, trying, to endlessly ask if someone is free for something and this person just doesn't have the heart to do so. (i might be hypocritical on this cos I think fatboy's asked me a few times to go out but somehow, i've always turned him down)

And these days, I feel I have a more stern attitude on the things I want. And if I really don't want to or feel like doing something, I really won't do it. I guess I kinda feel I had enough of letting things go or allowing others to have their way. I don't know, but I'm begininig to realise that everything's piling on to each other. And it's sorta feeding off each other. And I def am getting too uptight with things.

But somethings of stupidity and illogicallity really irks me. And even devcent courtesy of returning phone calls or msges is void these days. And only in the case of something is needed, suddenly everything becomes urgent. And people are unapologetic about it. Things that I think I put some effort in enforcing and people belittle it. I dunno, or maybe end of the day, I'm being too uptight.

Doesn't help that my computer is also konkin out so yeah.

Someone always said.. 'I need a getaway' and right now.. I feel like I need to do something to reset myself. To be more Zen liked.

I aplogise if i step on your toes. It might not be you. Or maybe it's always been you but I'm just losing patience for nonesense.. who knows.. maybe.. everyone needs to reflect during this period of time, just cos the world revolves around me and I'm feeling prissy. :S

Take care all. Hope I find answers soon.