The Phantom in me, never left

That's her nick for today. Seriously, do I haf a cause to worry or not. The thing is, she might be aware of wad's happenin but has not idea how to comprehand with it. Simply because of the ultimatum I had set. Screw up one more time and that's it. You don't get anymore chances. Maybe she is sorry about things. Maybe she has no control what's happening. Maybe she doesn't have the reason to stop things. Maybe she can't confess to me anything right now cos I've made it so difficult for her to. But those rules were laid there to prevent, to deter what I failed to in the past. But yet now, it's hindering her from revealin to me anything, even if she realises her err.

I really don't know. I'm partly tired but yet partly wanting to make it right. It's on a thin line now where things may go. But I need to focus on other things now. Like gettin my life straight.