DAY 2:

Talk about having a bad start to a day. Y continued SMSin askin for a chance. Ok, i'm being mean about the 'bad start' bit but it's not how I had expected to wake up. I'd thought it was all settled last night. But guess not. It's funny how yrs back, I'd have been more than happy if my ex then did what Y was doing cos I was so hoping she did cos I thought I had made a mistake but years later, somehow, it didn't work. Maybe cos I was really bent in not continuing anymore. As she says, I fail to see the good anymore and maybe that is true. Cos all I see now are the times she had forsaken me. The times she gave me crap. But maybe that's what I wanna see so as to make moving on much easier. Cos I know that if I were to think about the nicer times, I'd go soft and right now, I don't wish to be soft. I wanna be how I used to be when I entered school. Hardened. Tough and ready to face the shit the world had to offer me.

Bitter it may sound but I see it an easier way to lead life with all the curve balls it keeps throwin at ya.

Quite a sucky 12 hours if you asked me. With Y throwing me off balance and makin me say things I wish I didn't have to say to her even tho I felt it. Not to mention, I do believe that prior to what I had thought about my shoulder, I don't really think it's anything tt serious and I think it's just a pull in the muscle. But apart from that, I had a somewhat fulfilling workout.

Today's possibly the day I go get the flash. There's still a key person who hasn't replied to the mailer about the outing this sat. Sheesh. Wings is out. Jope seems like he's ok. Tho the question is still, why frog porridge. Haiz, anyway, let's put it on hold for a later date. Anyway, I got a photo op/ date this sat anyway. And a rarity I get to use the car on Sats.

Oh well, another day.. onward.....!!