Been a long time since i posted something. Guess dun really have the mood these days.

These days, i wonder to myself what is it that makes a person ideal and suitable for us? Are all the traits that we put down on our list, which is supposed to help us single out the person we want, supposed to help us decide how we want our future gf, partner, spouse to be. But recently, i qs whether is tt all essential? Shouldn't feelings be more important?

There used to be a time when I was so convinced tt tt's all tt's important. And that so long as I'm loving this person, it doesn't matter who comes along. With Y, I thought tt tt was all that was important. S I told her (n was convinced myself) tt it doesn't matter whether a better person comes along cos tt's MY commitment to her. I didn't really think abt tt til she prompted me last time. That was some time ago. And I really believed tt. When I was with YL, I never once strayed. And it's not cos there weren't any opportunities but just tt, I never really opened my eyes.

With Y, I never really strayed. Granted, I'm more hong than I was when wif YL but I still stayed to her and never let anything I saw or did, affect my r/s wif Y and tt, to me, was the most important factor.

But after this whole episode, I don't really wanna hide anything from her or lie to her. I want a r/s tt's simple and pure. No deceit, no nothing. I wanna be able to her tell her everything. I wan a r/s tt would allow us to go out with whoever we want and still trust each other enough to know tt our other halves won't cheat or stray. I want things to be tt cool :( we'll see....