I look around me sometimes, the people that are around me, here and there, people I don't really call close to me, but yet are within my circle of influence and I feel so thankful with what I got. I am thankful for the close friends I have whom I know will be there for each other. And I do know in the past, we lament how it's always the same lonely fuckers. Times like these, I'm glad it's these lonely fuckers and no one else.

We question where's the chai, where's the chai. But in retrospect, I'm glad that it's the bros we got right now and no girls. And maybe in all our times of tryin to change Jope's mentality, he is the one who's the most sensible of us all who actually knows better. True they may have their merit but at the same time, we know how troublesome they can be when they are tho some guys might think that they don't mind.

I've always known for a fact that most guys are laid back. Girls who like to hang out with guys do so cos they know this. Even they themselves can't stand the bitchiness which some guys exude. Alright, sure, guys got their egos, but thankfully, we don't really have anyone who's so full of himself tt it gets intolerable in our group, besides me and I think i'm quite tolerable :> so we're somewhat safe.

So here we got, a group of brothers I know I won't want anything else for, who's always there. And tho we may have our seperate lives sometime in the future, but I somehow can foresee ourselves being there for each other, even tho we may someday be miles apart, we're still united by one thing....




'The Yahoo Groups' :p


I never went about school trying to find a belonging to some group. I never went out of the way to try to fit myself somewhere. Maybe cos I found it tiring and a waste of time. Maybe I'm somewhat anti-social in my pursuit of independance, who knows. But sometimes, I look around and I see the lonley souls floating around, doing all they can to get the company they want but somehow, aren't able to. I feel somewhat sad that they're such a state. I always tell them to try being alone and surviving alone because once that is accomplished, being with some other people is a snap. But it's easy for me to say it cos, even in the times when I'm trying to survive on my own in my darkest periods in my life, somehow, the bros were always there in the background when things really got bad, tho not conciously known to them, but the simple presence that there was someone there for me to call was enough and when I think about that, I feel I'm lucky when compared to those who don't even have anyone to call or count on.

As I told Jos the other day tho not in this exact words, in this day and age, especially when you've come to your 20s (tho some do start earlier), we start filtering the people we want to know more. We start being picky with the people we want to know and the people we don't. There are also the people we should know, but don't want to. These are the supposed useful ones. I'm sure some of us are guilty of keeping a few 'useful' friends around just for that something they provided, in the form of contacts or emergency, or you know they can be there to fill up your time when u're bored, or whatever selfish reasons one might have. So many times, we are guilty of holding on to this particular someone because of what he can do for me. we are very pratical people, it's a matter of whether we know it or not.


But with the bros, it's different. This I am confident. We are in the company of each other not because of what every individual can do for each other be it in terms of monetary, career or wad not, we are in the company of each other for the basic of all things in a friendship. Companionship. We are with each other just for this basic need and purpose. Nothing more, nothing less. Not for work, not for money. not for anything unethical or unjust. just that.

Often we find ourselves being suspicious of another's intentions but how many can safely be so certain and carefree with the company he is with, knowing that he is well taken care of and that no one has any ill intent or any superficial needs of you.

We've known each other for close to 8 years. and some, even 10-11 years. How many people can boast of this record. And as time rapidly passes us by, yet we still stay on with each other close by. Counting on each other. And it's always amazing how we can actually remain in our group despite us always lamentin how boring life is and as one wise one always says. "SIBEI SIAN AH" or "ELWIN SIBEI SIAN" or whoever's name is near him that it somehow becomes synonomous to him. But hey, look at us, we're still here man. We don't really have an exact commonality that's present n divided among all. We can say billiard/pool but Jos ain't that keen in that (of which he's determined that he's not exactly happy easily so .. well, let him sort out that). We got soccer but I'm not even in the loop on that, just play it for the heck of it and cos it's interesting. We got MJ which some of us are just there for the ride and the company, which is cool. The only commonailty we got strangely enough is the thing that actually makes this brotherhood so successful. Girls. It's the thing we lament about, feel sorrow and sianess about, and the thing we complain lacking but yet am at times, thankful for the lack of it, well, me and Jope anyway, not sure what's the stand of everyone else. But i guess it will always be an aspect in our life. When we finally start our own family, if ever, we lament about how the missus does this and that or maybe for some, sing praises of the missus of which, we won't even hear about cos this person wouldn't even be there if he were that happy with the missus. But, hey, it's a possible reality.

After all this yakking, all I wanna say is that for the bros, if you ever think your life is like crap, don't cos you know you always got us here for ya. And with us, you're never alone.

all that being said, would like to announce for vin his change in status cos I know that it's just weird blowing your own trumpet and usually requires someone else to do it for ya. Even when I questioned him, he would just tell me to check his friendster profile. Strange how we can never just say it out right that we're attached or call someone to tell them we're attached. But anyway, congrats to Vin for being newly attached. Wil was right, man only happy about 2 things, money and girls. Ah well. Happy for him. Cynical as I am, I look forward to hearing complains about gf soon :p if got none, good for ya :)

And if you guys wanna take it out on him about how yo guys found out about it, then by all means, jos was lamenting about the way he had to find out, which was essnetially through me. Ah well.

Anyway, do take care you guys, and I'll catch up very soon. I'm somewhat quite free this 2 weeks with just preps for the trip. Catch me when you can. See ya... :)

*Btw, who's free when this week, see if can catch up tho according to vin, jos is somewhat busy this week. Lemme noe alright? Think jope quite free this week. Will oso according to his nick!!