on another note. I dunno y people in school keeps gettin a wrong impression of the things i've said or rather have a wrong impression. And I got a sinking feelin where the source is from. However I am thankful there are still a good few who still stand by moi and are unfazed by hearsay somehow. Well, one is that I apprantly dunno what a C-stand is which i dun understand where that came from. And also, I got this funny feelin that people blame me for the audition cam cock up when i had absolutely no idea what was happenin and had a hectic day the day of the equipment drawing out. So go figure. Politics are getting interesting somehow and I must say, it is rather tough to keep focused on things clearly but it def is gettin interesting, seeing how people's perception can be changed so easily and that people dun noe me better (responsible person rather than an irresponsible person). Which in some way is sad that people do. There are some people you can be quick to lable irresponsible and shirking of responsiblities but I'm def not one of them.

I find it interesting that when confidence in a person is sorta shattered, it's not so easy in attaining back. I also realise that I am not able to consciously talk bad behind someone's back without feelin a tinge of guilt even tho it is true. It's just so bitchy and so chicken of me if I do so.

My spec's breakin apart but i am thankful for the individuals who have stuck by and are stilln going on strong despite the odds. I'm glad there are still some who are working towards something rather than giving up when the going get tough. It hasn't been easy and smooth and I'm def feelin stretched thin from needing to worry abt loc, auditions among other directorial duties. But hey, least there's people helping me now. I thank my friends who have helped me in spreading the word. It's a lil act but still, thanks.

I'm gonna go, didn't noe what's the purpose of the above but hey, random updates i guess. :p