I'm so bloody fucking happy I got me fotos today... :) love the sky shots i took. Noe amy would love it even more....

Had my spec meeting today. Haiz, things dun seem to be going well but seems like it's gonna be better. Sham wrote a mail to the group. In some way, I guess I gotta ask around more. Rainah was nice to stay back to help me today. :) Anyway, Andrew was quite nice about it all. He said he's sorry he didn't mean to sound like he's scolding me. Funny thing is didn't feel like he was doing it. Well, to each his own. Anyway, he's nice so far and tellin us tt the way we're going seem to be a repeat of last yr which is fucking scary. So I gotta buck up. Dunno why when I'm brainstorming ideas in my head, I end up losing focus and stonning. Anyway..... I'm glad the rest ain't buggin me about the script so tt kinda cuts some slack for me. Rainah's pretty sensitive. She knows that I'm uncomfortable with the whole group being there as I can't really ask Andrew much pertaining to the script. So she suggested I set up an individual meeting..


(just wrote an email to andrew)

Neway, it was rather nice. Kinda feelin better about it today comapred to last night. Last night was a wreck. Anyway, feeling nice and dandy today tho Amy's kinda giving me a headahce. Sometimes dunno what to do to her when she's in her sucky moods and feelin negative about everything tt even my efforts to make her see the brighter side of things seem wrong. And even when my actions are of good intentions, she sees them differently. I'm here to be the support beam but somehow, because of my focus on my role, kinda am insensitive to her predicament but then again, she did tell me before tt she's not rational and needs me to be but yet in times like these, I feel like I'm the horrid bad person being all to insensitvie, unsympathetic (ever sucha word), not empathetic, to her situation. She's having problems in school and I'm like tryin to get her to see the brighter side of things and she tells me something abt me when I go out to work, mayb i'll understand better. Like takin out on me. But yet, through all these, I'm tryin to make things easier for her. I dunno how the future is going to be like if things like these keep going on cos I have my own worries to settle as well so which comes first..

At times, when I'm brudened on my own side, I can't let her in cos she's also brudened on her side and she takes it even worse then me. And during times like these when she's facing problems and I ain't exactly in shortage of them, then wad then. Think times like these, really gotta just leave her to herself and just bother about my stuff at hand. I had a lot to write about just now when I was in the bus but guess them thots have eluded me. Anyway... I can't write too much, I gotta rush my script out hopefully by sat. or rather the outline. Send it to rainah to fine tune then hope to meet andrew by next monday, fine tune further then wednesday send to him the script and thursday meeting. Tight schedule. in the mean time... Need to settle DPM cos Jaye's without a group. Also, AFP for tomorrow and need to try to squeeze in time for media law before class starts. Can't fall too far behind for all the subjects else it'd very to catch up when everything starts to go full throttle.

K, gonna run along nw.... enjoy your hols dudes... i'll c the rest of ya in school... ciao....take care babes, dudes...