Shall attempt to complete this blog in 5 mins.

Had a very very stressed end to last week. Was so stressed with the pitch and the progress of things. Made me think I need very selective of my final yr groupings. Pitch last thursday was not exactly up to expectation. Think alf did very well, but whenever i see his end product, I always feel that it is not tt difficult to achieve. I just lack the motivaiton to push myself to tt point. Sometimes, I kinda reflect it on the various groups I'm in and a lack of initiative and wonder if it's fair to think that way. but I guess but just have different focuses and mayb the key to all these is to find one person who's on par with you in terms of work attitudes. End of the day, felt I could've done better and was not my best effort.

Got Amy to help with my powerpoint but I kind made some insensitive remarks to her end product tho i was grateful for her help. But learnt tt it was not a good idea to have asked her for her help. Guess this kinda applies for most of my work. Cos, ultimately, someone's impression may not best suit what you desire. Well, tt night didn't end well with her anyway.

Also, oso thursday night didn't end well either. Cos she was tired and also she was sore tt I didn't plan much on Friday's outing. (Why i need to plan leh?) Anyway, conversation was short. I was still super stressed cos I was very tired and had also needed to complete my OITP essay which I realised was due on sat and I only had thursday night to type it out to hand in on Friday. I ended up waking up at 5 in morning to write it. Had an energetic start to the day tho acting for acting and directing. But was super zonked out during lunch. Was so disturbed on how to manage Amy and Sham's scout thingy cos felt I needed to least meet the scouts. (FOR DOC PRO). SO was trying to manage it. Told Sham tt i'll confirm with him after I see AMy how.

THen came my long ardous journey to repair my cam. Did a mini route march to the darn place. Shifted to another part in Jurong Industrial park. Dammit man. Spent 2 hours just gettin there from Boon Lay. Had left school at 2.30 by the time I reached the freakin place was close to 5. Not to mention somethin stupid happened. i over slept in 184 on my way to clementi. When I open my eyes, realised I was on the same side as SIM!!! Dozed off and went on a loop which brought me back to the same place i started. reached town around 6+. Then had a major fight made major by me. She kinda picked the wrong time to pull her "stunts". So was super pissed and emotional about her insinuating abt me not tryin to make things work when i was on my side trying so hard already. Her excuse was tt she just wanted to spend time with me. Then I will always question her why she spends the little time we have together sulking. Think tt she's sore tt she didn't get to club when it was planned tt we were suppose to. But I didn't plan on me being so tired by the day's event. Somehow, this is one incident I am going find very very difficult to forget.

But we made our peace after shoutings from me and after I've calmed down. Jos finds it ironic tt I was fuelling my rage on purpose. Mayb he's right in some sense but I just felt wronged and I just felt tt there was not sense in trying to be rational when someone nvr ever appreciates the effort on my part. But I was impressed by her rationality during one part of the incident. Wished she was always like tt. Thinking of a rational way of seeing things.

We proceeded to haf our makan at this place at paragon called, "My Mom's Cuisine" Sucky place really. Wouldn' recommend it. Horrid service. Trust me, not worth the time.

Anyway, Amy managed to crash over on Friday. And on Sat, Sham told me tt I didn't need to come for the Scout's thingy till a short while in the night at bishan. So spent the Sat nuaing. Then went to J8 to hang out. Which we managed to do some peaceful catching up. Always told her tt I like just spending time just doing nothing at all. She always thinks it's boring for me. Go figure. We spent a nice time sitting down outside the MRT just chatting. It's nice. :)

SUnday was a super tiring day but didn't do anything productive cept play soccer. Quite a disappointing time tho but Still maneged to enjoy myself nevertheless. Game with Fai, Kenneth, Kuling, Jopie, Alvin, Wings, and amazingly, Clarence. Not too bad a player. Never saw him as the soccer kind and Jope kinda half expected him not to show up. And amazingly, he did. Tho quite a cock cos he kept asking if got place to bathe. Sheesh. Ok lah, can't blame him cos he WAS going out after tt.

Sent out my letter for Pro plan. Gonna send a mail to my Doc Pro group and then go out and haf an outing wif Amy then it's back to work again, if i can. Tomorrow's noon gonna be spent waiting for the tv guy again. Haiz....


til then, good luck all wif your work. I'll see you guys soon. Take care. Good day dude and babes.