Heh... Granny rattling on and on about something. Somewhat sounding between a grumbling and complainin. Anyhoo, Grandparents stayin over at my place now. I came home at 2ish after a supper with joseph after i was done with production. Thanks to Jos and Alvin for their help. Was inmeasurable. Anyway, went to bed quite late but somehow couldn't really wake up later. Or rather, couldn't get back to sleep when I woke up at 7ish 8. Dunno why. Not sure if it's becos of the commotion. Well, I listened to all the fuss outside and I wonder how I could do anything. I think I somehow feel somewhat helpless. Like, I can't imagine what I could do to make things better for my grandpa. Not that he's in a lot of pain or anything (not tt i noe of). But somehow, he's just fussy about this and that. Then grandma obviously doesn't noe when to shuush so kinda adds to the confusion and commotion of things. anyway, just felt bad I couldn't do anything. I guess the only thing I could do is to once in a while pop in my head and say a few words of happy lively mood. I'm not sure if he's gonna stay over at my place all the way or what. Not sure of the arrangement. Selfishly, of course, I thought it was somewhat of a inconvenience to have the grandfolks around but thought that I'd probably regret it if I continued with that thought so swung around and thought it best that I just sit back and enjoy their company since it's there. As they sometimes write in books, the beauty of grandparents which somewhat lies subjective, like grandma had many stories to tell and it was nice, but in actuality, she was just grumbling. But I guess I just gotta see it in that perspective and just enjoy it anyway. She prob might not think it so, but it's rather amusing listening to her ramble. Even when I go off to my room and back, she's still talkin in the kitchen then i can go off to the room and back she can still be talking. Some can see it in a not so nice light (we all know how naggy they can be) or the more (aww... something I'm gonna miss tho I'm not so sure if after 10 yrs it would be the same) In anycase, enjoy it while it lasts. Gotta get used granny's footsteps. Can't tell when she's walkin near. She shuffles her feet around, not takin normal footsteps so can't really predict when she's coming. A lil scarey. :p

On a somewhat, lesser note I think, production went not too bad yesterday. Rained a lil which sorta made things somewhat eventful but other than that, it was fine other than more people then needed shouting here and there but besides that, that is fine.

Joseph was nice enough to lend us his car tho to the shock and horror of him probably, we mounted the curb slightly with it, which lead to fists flying in the air. Alvin was 75% driver for the day but think he's been very helpful in the shoot. And crew trusts him a lot. The fact that he was jagar-ing the camera in the night shoot. Shows kimie trusts him which is good. If it's any good thing, we wouldn't necessary get any ah mao ah gao to do it. Might seem like an unglam job but strangely enough, tt's where we might actually start. :p Alf and Jaye helped us through so it was quite nice. Fi and Chris came down in the morn to noon to help us. Tt was nice too. But sadly, the wrong stock was used and we gotta reshoot the night scene. Guess no production is complete without a big boo boo. Not sure when the date of reshoot is but it's gonna be tricky. Anyway, tt's tt.

Amy was nice to follow me through the production but she came to a conclusion that it was the first and last time. Guess she was somewhat bored and felt out of place. Guess my impression is that she'd be there for my hour of need and stuff but as joseph says, can't expect her to sit through all these things cos it's not her thing. But my impression's tt she'd rough it through cos I really need the extra help irregardless of how useless she is. Haiz, in any case, it was nice having her around. I would wish to have more of her onset but I guess not. So much for her 'if you need help, I'll be there' speech. Fact of the matter is, I do need all the help i can get. But guess, when not in the production, she won't understand. In someway, it sorta makes me wanna take a drastic measure which is not to ask her for help in any of my work. If she has that mentality that she can't help and seems somewhat less than willing to just be around, then in my most dire need, mayb, I wouldn't turn to her. I dunno, seems somewhat unrelated but yet related to me. Just can't make sense but feels like the thing to do. Of cos it seems somewhat unbalanced that when she is in need of help on her side, I'm expected to come up with the solution while I can't turn to her. But, I guess it's because mine is a more specialised line of work. I guess I'm the type that would like to keep her in the loop of my stuff. But then again, after what she said yesterday, she sorta debunked her 'I wanna be in you loop' speech as well. So at the end of the day, it's all talk and lesser action. Maybe the action's there and I'm not seeing it.

Alf and me came to a conclusion abt our gals or maybe girls in general is that they dun understand our work. Both complained abt us helping other people when we should be spending time with our respective gfs. They dun understand the need and commitment and expectation of us helping other people. Or rather, needing to help other groups even at the expense of our gfs. Reason being, it's sorta a mutual exchange, scratch your back scratch ours kinda logic. But the gfs dun see it that way and just see it as rather spend time with others to help them than spend time with them -the gfs. Haiz, think gfs n work nvr ever mix well. Sheesh. But somehow, me n alf has the logic tt they're all a bunch of trouble but yet (we nvr really said this), we still stick with them cos they're still alright in some sense. But we just adapt and not do things to agitate them. Like Amy not being so happy when I meet YL and I dun expect her to be ever cool with it.

Read what jos wrote. Marriage? Hmm.... We'll know. Guess Amy's somewhat not so happy and probably not so encouraging that I never ever seem so keen or rather I seem to freak out or be speechless when marriage is mentioned. Least abt her and me. But dun wanna give her the wrong idea. Truth of the matter is, I don't think that can be worth talkin about now. Not when I dun feel that things are stable enough on the relationship front. On another hand, Alvin got a shock when I told him tt victoria got married. Guess we dun really have anyone who's so close to our circle and getting hitched. Much less someone a year younger than us.

anyhoo, one step at time. Tt's how I'm takin it.

leaving now. shoot in 3 hour's time. Hope all goes well. Cya all. Thanks for everyone's help. Cya all around. Ciao.