Life's so strange, fragile and unpredictable.
 
Just today I was reading the papers about financial planning and all. Retirement and all that rubbish. Then a thot (surprise surprise) popped into my head. There's so much about life to worry about, money, health, wad people think and wad not. There's seriously no time to do all that. Where can u find the time for all that, and still enjoy the company of friends and the leisure and free time to relax? I absolutely have no idea. And for a person like me, I wanna share and foot in everything that I end up doing things here and there, slip shot and what not. There's too much to spread myself.
 
And even when i'm wondering these thots, Amy piles on to me her problems of her fun fair which never seems to go anywhere. Anyway, it's all cool cos I just sit and listen to her. So long she don't gimme no probs. And just today, dad was tellin me 8th August, sunday, go grandpa's to eat lunch as it's his brithday. Was wondering how to tell amy cos she wanted to have a short getaway. Anyway, weirdly enough, Granny called an hour plus ago sounding very panicky. Grandpa apparantly fell and is bleeding. I hope it's a minor thing. I asked me mom why do old people always fall. It's like a protocol or something. When I'm old, I must fall. Anyway, kinda made me feel that life is so scary at time and even now, i wonder what I should do with my life with all the things to worry about. I dun wan to wake up one day, realising, hey, why have i been leading my life this way, why didn't i do this, or that. I thot about my grandpa in the worse case scenario. It's not like I'm very close to him but somehow, when one is close to his end, you can't help but think of all the nice bits abt them, no matter how insignificant. And also, you tend to think the worse in the situations to make them even worse. Like I'd really feel very sorry for my granny when my grandpa does ... somehow, I wonder if for her, she'd see any reason to carry on with her life. It made me realise that at the end of our lives, the ones we want to spend our ends with is that special one person, irregardless of how shitty things have gotten. Anyway, even tho some part of me think it to be very dramatic, I wish that things would go fine for my grandpa, for everyone's sake.
 
Take care, think about what you wanna do with your life cos I sure hell dun. Thot i did but apparantly not. See you all, take care dudes, babes.