Watched Monster on Friday. Was a nice show. Strangely enough, very heart warming. Tho it's about a prostitute turned killer. But guess sympathetic as to why she started killing.

Had a rehearsal at Chris' place in the afternoon for Drama and Poetry. Then met Amy.

Had the worst time together with her. Was such a roller coaster ride last night. We just kept steppin on each others tail and it is times like last night I really question how strong my relationship is with her and how long I can take. At the same time, I can't blame her either cos we all have our own quirks and all, and maybe her quirks just gets to me more. I don't know. Sometimes, really feel she'll be so much happier with somebody who isn't sucha a jackass at times. And it's not like I'm tryin to be one but just how I am and how i do and see things I guess. Mayb i'm just too weird in my own way. Feel so tired by relationships sometimes and really wonder the rationale behind it. Sometimes really think tt it's so much easier to be alone. Don't have to worry so much abt somebody else. It may be sad sounding but sometimes really wish to be alone. Think drive myself nuts unnecessarily, worryin and caring for someone else. But yet at the same time, think me too much of an old man. Don't really feel like doing anything when going out with her. Which is bad when she feels like doing all sorts of things while I'm just too darn lazy or feel tt I'll be too tired. I dont meet her on skool days cos figured i'll be too tired when I reach home and probably not do anything constructive but then again, it's not tt i actually do so when I don't go out with her. Probably gotta re-evaluate on tt. Either be more constructive when not with her or go out with her if I ain't. A fren was kinda describing her relationship to me where kinda had the same problems and in the long run, the guy started caring and loving less and I wonder if tt's where I'm heading.

BUt yet despite it all, I still love spending time with her and sometimes I wonder if it's all worth it and I guess I noe the relationship's doomed when I start thinkin tt it ain't worth puttin up with all the nonesense. Sighz... Where do i go from here? Sucha loss.