Best blog now before I forget what's been happening. Week's been kinda hectic. Kinda been a lil frustrating cos haven't been able to get the studio booked due to the full slots. But can't really complain cos they did come earlier, my fault for not having come earlier. Been having erratict (did i get it rite?) sleeping hours these few days. Sleeping at 10ish and waking at 2ish to do my work. Ah well. Watched My Teacher Kim last nite. Kinda duped into watching it. Probably shouldn't have gone, was freezing cold and was super sleepy during the show. Ah well. Sent Shi han, Maisie, Fi and Bobby home. Went to Amy's before tt to collect stuff and pass her stuff too. She didn't seem happy though I have no idea why. Mayb I do but just don't see the reason for it.

Wrote her a letter last nite but fell asleep while doing it. Times like these I think to myself it's so difficult with her and all. But when things are back to normal, just glad to have her. So kinda mixed feelings kinda thing. My perceptions of relationships have changed. Dun really see it as a forever kinda thing. Feel like there's so much now and so difficult to find time for everything. Dun wanna neglect my friends, at the same time spend time with gf and all. Wish can do both but she ain't so sociable. Dunno why they're all such shy shy people. Haiz. Go figure. Now I understand why some people say friends are better. DUn give you so much headaches and problems.

Wrote to her this: "I always thought of a girlfriend as an upgrade of a friend. I dun want the properties and priveleges of a friend to be lost. Just feel that it's cooler, and less stressful at times. But I realise that is sometimes difficult to achieve cos it seems to downplay the relationship. Not to mention, we probably care more for partner than the friend. And it's funny that how this can be negative and work against the relationship. Just because the partner matters more. Just because of this, it strains the relationship. What a paradox. I hope one day, I can solve this. Or mayb this is the way it is supposed to be. Funny isn't it that we have more squabbles with our partners compared to friends."

Guess I'll never know.